its true guys.ive change.
not for the worst..
for the better.
and i thank "YOU"
for that.
making me realise it.
and i dont change fer u..
i change fer myself.
My daily horoscope,
Hilwa,Your love life suddenly warms up today after you get some interesting news via email. It looks like you might have a bigger budget than you expected. Maybe you can get that special treat for your significant other - some electronic toy they have been ogling.
Takda pon..anytink interesting via my email.
pfft.
and i came across this sentences.
“Fate only takes you so far, then it's up to you to make it happen.”
real true isnt it?!
see, we decide.
lazy monday.
ouh why does menstruations leads to migranes??!
urggghh.
chatting with kakak now.
haha.
i got a date later...
dvd marathon.
wee!!
i seriously dont know wad to blog.
im gonaa be v.busy with work n school.
till here..
and to you, i know u will always be there for me..
ps: im glad ure gone for now! (:
and been long since somebody compliments me.
"sweetest smile with a nicely placed cheekbones."
i am a big dissapointment to you..
haish..
im gonna miss u all!!
ernie promise to call me up to buka sama2.
since she started morning shift.
alvin says now he's bored..he dont have any gossip kakis.
and the rest promise to keep in contact.
TANGS n TAKA is not really far ppl.
today is ma last day working at tangs..!!
im gonna miss the nixon's peeps!!
the crazy jonathan,nina,ryan
n my buka kaki's...
(daniel,samad,kak siti & jamal.)
and mi! aku tak keje sama tmpt gan kau lagi.. :(
im back working at TAKA.
with liza & radzea..haha!
past 3 days was pleasant as i got to spend it with you.
ouh..can you stop overeacting?! i just feel lyke slapping you hard in ur face!
dont worry babe.
guess i have loads of things in ma mind..
and i got carried away.
u're forgiven ok.
just dun pissed me off again..
early in the morning.
everybody is busy nowadays with their special ones.
and lucky..
i dont get any free leisure tyme as i do fer the past months.
and my time is limited.
lyke just now,
i squeezed my time in dropping by afganistan..
intention to take bubur..
but dah habis..
so i buy kuih2..
and kakak called up..
asked me to buka at their hse.
a surprise to him.
cos he was sleeping..
:)
pity him cos he complained
of having lack of sleep n rest.
tsk.tsk.tsk.
ouh btw..im back on werking at TAKA again...
kecoh pe..
haha..
till here..
happy fasting people.
and
Q,
i really need to spend some tyme with you..
mst probs by next week
or the next..
please tell me how can i contact u lah bugger!
SOMEBODY TOLD ME IVE CHANGE.I NEED TO BUCK UP.
EXAMS COMING.
LOTS OF THINGS NEED TO BE DONE.
N I NEED TO FOCUS.
PLEASE DONT GIVE ANY MORE PROBLEMS.
LIFE NEED TO MOVE ON I GUESS..
love you all.
"SELAMAT BERPUASA KEPADA KAWAN-KAWANKU SEMUA!!"
sahur with him.
leads to me getting sick together with him.
now im down with fever too.
haha.
been busy working n finishing my projects lately.
no time to relax and stand still.
like now..
im late for work..
n yet im busy updating my blog.
haha..
till den.
love you all..
esp, Q..!
i need to let it out somewhere..
pushing me far this time around..
yet..
all i did was just shout,cried n forgive.
its really too fast after years.
yet..
it seem to be pointless and a heartless situation.
truth.
tats what i need.
anger.
how i wish i cud erase it.
hurt.
unexplainable.
patients beats me.
not looking back n hold my head high
and left it as it is
will only brings bitter memories + feelings.
im sinking deeper to the past.
guess it helps somehow.
dont wanna sympathy
or
any advices
i just need to let it out somewhere.
and apparently
"here"
i just want the old self. caringness.laughters. smiles and love BADLY.
I miss every second when you lay those lips on my forehead.
every single time.
But to think after what you did......
&
I'm not contradicting..
Spare a second and think
What if that happens to you.
I know you will start lashing to me..
If it were not for hopes, the heart would break.
had fun with classmates on FRIDAY!!
celebrate IRFAN 's 19th Birthday!
went for sheesha n karaoke sessions with em.
serious madness!
met that someone.
dah kurus eh..bagus lah..
haha.
i really need to say this.
seriously,
get a life.
dont go light headed and to think that everything is falling to pieces.
its NOT.
guess YOU should know better.
n to think of it.
u're used..
where's your dignity..?
where's your pride?
really pity you.
tsk.tsk.tsk.
its ok.
i'll just wait n see what's gonna happen next.
feel free to get my no.
if you're not satisfied with my post. (:
p.s: I FUCKING HATE YOU.
Tot of changing my skin.
but laziness beats me.
giving up on everything.
hate myself for being weak n forgiving.
there's so much to catch up on.
like projects need to be due by next week.
presentations.
phase tests.
exams.
n fasting month is getting near.
been working..
and i had fun with the crazy nixon's peeps..
seriously.
"I MAKE YOU CHANGE, BUT YOU BRING OUT THE WORSE IN ME."
wanting to go for school today.
but guess i were too tired to even hear the alarm.
haish.
working later.
he's being sweet yesterday..
coming down ma blk and stuff.
see you around,love!
back from "celebrating" national day.
haha.
was working till 8.30pm..
thank god TANGS closed early today!!
Q popped in at ma workplace.
and headed to city hall with her.
had fun..
eh,Q..
seriously when im inside the cab with u just now..
aku sumpah tak bedek..tat im imagining that u went "clubbing" with me..!!
hahaa.
tak PERNAH in ma whole entire friendship with u..
we took a cab at that hour.
SERIOUSLY!
btw..his name is ALVIN.
-___________-"
"shagged from work."
do you know about ppl having familiar/exact features
as the ones that u knew..??
haha!
at my workplace..
(currently working at TANGS not TAKA anymore)
theres this guy..
which i dun know his name yet.
looks EXACTLY lyke him!!!
his droopy eyes.
his nose.
his lips.
the way he dress.
the way he wore his cap.
EVERYTHING!!
even when he smiles!!!!!!
and his counter is directly
infront of mine.
n i need to face him for
8hrs
12 freaking days.
every min.
omg.
but apparently
he's chinese.
BUT..
HE do have the chinese looks too..!!
ouh what a day.
will get to know his name tomoorooww.
n i lyke working TANGS than TAKA.
haha.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAK YENNY!!"
meet u later at night.
otay?
i had a lovely saturday!spend with my loves.i so can't wait fer my pay!!i got a lot in my mind.tell me,which is better..
gallery hotelor
scarlet hotel..sometimes i miss those chats we used to had.now u're just into fire-related game which u dont wanna lend mecos u're stingy to the max.
p.s: still love u to bits! 
i hate how things always end up fer me.
LIKE
things doesn't go the way i'd planned it
having the false hope
people giving me the fuck up attitude
and
karma.
as how much i always imply to it,
i always hate it.
"it takes two hands to clap."
of course you guys always say this sentences to your significant other
or to anybody..
but
do you guys felt shitty when it actually been spoken by u
or
spoken to you?
ouh.
i really hate last min change of plans.
when u get all the hopes n joy
on something you looking forward to
and the damn last min..
it changes everything.
LIKE
WTF KAN..?!
its sooo sucky!!
hopes.
the truth.
i used to live ma life as
a daily basis.
cos i don't like hoping n dream for something
in the future.
cause deep down i know..
it wont turn out how u badly want it to be.
yes,
sometimes it did..
but that's occasionally.
and u will feel so disappointed in yourself
and hurt
and sad
and you just feel that the life is unfair for you.
now
its happening to me..
i dare myself to take the risk
on having hopes and dreams
and to have a goal in my life.
and
the result.
most of it WAS disappointing
and
v. hurtful.
i will never land myself in being hopeful ever again.
and the patience
is killing me.
"what goes around,
comes around."
another sentence which i hate.
don't wanna elaborate further.
i hate my life.
why it's so unfair.
maybe its true on what mom have always been saying..
"life is like a wheel,
sometimes u're at the top and sometimes u're at the bottom."
so when can MY life be at "TOP"?????!!!
SOMEBODY TOLD ME IVE CHANGE.
scarlet hotel..
