The feelings right now. I can proudly say that im Happy. Calm. Blessed.

Restu? Since that day..allah have proven me that my fate is not with him. Ive realize that even thou how much we want things going in our favour..we cant make it happen even how much effort you have put in it. If its not for you..its not. Fullstop.

Rasid? Alhamdullilah. I can say..he's the reason why im happy n contented right now..we are taking it slow.. As i know he's not ready to dwell in a relationship right now. Just going with the flow n follow our hearts. He's the first that i have real patience for a guy that i love. I have faith in him. Even thou he's ego are high as the sky.. I hope i could have the patience to withstand him n i hope he could be a better person..and the be the one guiding me.

Ya allah.. Jangan lah kau hampa hamba mu ini ya allah. Kalau lah dia memang untuk aku.. Berubah lah dia supaya jadi ihsan yang baik dalam semuanya dan ikhlas untuk membinbingku dalam semuanya.

And i hope.. When i have put all my love n effort to you,rasid.. Dont you decide to dissapoint me or hurt me . I cant bear to overcome all of it again.